So much crying,
laughing and emotional dope!!
Thought it could be
the most hopeless new years night ever!
But then it all
changed...
The year began with a
bang!
As the night turned
from dull moonlight
To the first morning
sunshine of 2017
The day began with the
saga of ‘lost’ keys..
The week ended with
the happiness of ‘found’
Whether it was just
the keys or a new person..
In me or someone else,
In me or someone else,
It all felt good
Whatever stopped me from it..
I knew it would harm
me..
But the heart
prevailed over the mind!
As always the stupid
me!
Thus began the saga..
Of another ‘lost and
found’
I lost myself to an
emotion I love the most..
And found myself a new
me..
The new year..
The new ride…All felt so good!
The new ride…All felt so good!
Also, professionally was a high time,
Competitions, conferences..
All wins and no losses
here too!
Boosted my confidence
by leaps and bounds!!
Alas! Lost some most
important documents,
But found it the very
next day!!
As if the universe
knew
That this year is mine,
And whatever I had
lost…
Had to get back to me!
Had to be found!!
I thought my luck was
shining…
Indeed it was!
Like there was nothing
left to lose..
And I let my heart
continue its ride,
But I should’ve cut it
off earlier…
Cuz in the end again I
lost!
Before I had found
enough!
Was I wise to even
invest myself again…
To this kind of lost
and found?
Was it true emotion or
just fakeness all around!?
Never found the answer
to that then..
But as time passed,
I found this loss,
Was a beginning to
another great find..
My precious friendship,
With some lovely
people around!
And my strong resolve
to get healthy and fit!
And might be
This is the kind of
found
Better than any loss!!
These sweethearts
helped me
to adapt to my inherited
loss..
made me feel more
worthy!
and we spent so much
time together,
happy, sad and
learning..
on our way to continue,
my phenomena of lost
and found..
in terms of people and experiences!
then came the break time
we took a trip together..
to god’s own country,
thought it would help
me,
to find a new me..
but I guess the pain
of loss
had seeds in that
country
and all that I could
appreciate
was its beauty…
but not my own!!
it reminded me of a
few scars I shouldn’t have revived!
coming back to my city
that never sleeps..
countless nights spent
crying,
insomniac ones, crazy
overthinking, overeating days
nevertheless, soon work
became enough
to keep the devils
workshop busy!
a forced and official
one though,
from the routine
schedule,
to another gruelling
schedule!
from juggling between,
the rural urban
postings…
and decorating my old
house new!
revelling in the
beauty of nature
to the developing of
ideas..
of a dream house into a reality!!
this was another kind
of lost and found,
of a dream house into a reality!!
trying to lose out on
some memories..
while finding a few
new!!
suddenly out of the
blue..
found some lost
clothes as well
this gave a sign..
as all lost things
have been found
in the year that has
passed by..
I will just find
myself again too!!
And just when I
thought that this was enough..
as the year was about
to end..
expected nothing more
of these lost and found..
came another big unexpected
loss!
the pain of this was
the maximum!
superseded all losses
of the year!!
I pondered,
Was I really lucky
then with the lost and found??
If I couldn’t find the
person back
that was like my
godfather,
my guiding light,
another family..
I realised that this
struggle,
has to be fought alone
now,
and might be this will
help me
find, discover my
superpowers!!
I hope and only hope
to find,
myself in a better
frame of mind…
A better vision as
taught by my lost teacher!
A better person as I
always wanted to be!
A better daughter who
can take better care of her ageing parents!
A better friend to the
people who have been there for me!
A better year in terms
of love and people!
A better experience
than the current year!
A year full of pursuing hobbies i love..
travel, dance, read and write more...
A year full of pursuing hobbies i love..
travel, dance, read and write more...
May 2018 be less of
lost and more of found!
All wishes and desires fulfilled...
And of happiness unbound!!
All wishes and desires fulfilled...
And of happiness unbound!!
