You know you’ve hit the blues
When everything seems out of control
And you don’t even have a clue!
Most of us from the twenties would associate
With this phenoma that I call
“The being twenty something blues”
The mind is too confused…full of questions,
Seeking answers to each of them but finding none!
Be it your education, job, love, life…
Everything in general seems screwed!!
When you just keep on pondering…
What are you made for? Or what is made for you?
Maybe you want everything!
Maybe you want nothing!!
To be or not to be is the big question
To do or die such is the situation!
When gloomy days lurk ahead
When depression ensues unsaid!
When everything done is in despair
When all seems totally beyond repair!
The future seems bleak
The present seems weak
The past has passed
Many memories of it missed!
You feel alone…
You feel nobody is mine…
You want to live the present moment…
You want to make it work to your advantage…
But you don’t know how!
When you want to act your age
But all you do sometimes is cry like a child
You can’t express the mess in your head
For the fear of being judged “silly” and “weird”
You judge yourself too much
Always think of self as “small” and “little”
Your ideas are big. thoughts revolutionary
You want to be someone…with fame and money
An actor, A director, A dancer, A singer
A writer, A doctor with big degrees and name!
But the times and finances are not much supportive
And things seem not going as planned, falling out of place
Coz education is priority,
All other hobbies achieve the status of minority!
It’s a time when even parents stop asking questions
Co’z you aren’t a teen any more
They want you to self analyse and score
All the goods and bads
Of the decisions you take
All the pros and cons
Of the mistakes you make
Their glaring looks,
Their baggy eyes,
Their drooping shoulders,
Their dried-up skin
All make you realize
The need for being responsible
Coz the tender seeds they had sown
Are now trees full grown!
It’s a time when acceptance and expectance seems ruthless
Be it by friends, your someone special or even a spectator!
When they love you, you feel like his highness!
When they ditch you, you feel hopeless,
It’s a time when rejection and failure seems unacceptable
So much so that the success of those who have moved ahead
Makes you believe you’re worth nothing and can’t do anything
Makes you feel so paralysed, that it saps out all your energy
It’s a time when you have to make the most important decisions of life…
Be it education, career or marriage..
When you don’t want to study further and are coaxed to…
You feel like Ranbir Kapoor from “wake up sid”
You feel like Ranbir Kapoor from “wake up sid”
When you don’t have job and are desperate to get one…
You feel like the farmers from vidarbha praying for that one drop of rain!
And when you can’t get married to the person you love…
And when you can’t get married to the person you love…
You feel like “har kisko nahi milta yaha pyaar zindagi me…”
The transient fleet of emotions
The transient fleet of emotions
Makes you even more vulnerable!!!
Amidst this trouble..
Amidst this rubble..
Amidst this rubble..
Is the struggling you
Trying to figure out
What is that’s going wrong
What you need to do…to be strong
What will make you happy
What will help you break the anarchy
You know you need to take control
And steer clear of
What are your priorities
What are your preferences
Stop being a choice
Give all your thoughts a voice!
Co’z nor your parents neither anyone else
Completely can sense
The caught up you…
As you appear calm outside
But enmasse a storm inside
Co’z these aren’t silly problems of teenage
Or some psychiatric fits of rage
It is a fight deep down
Between the id, the ego and the supergo
A war to balance your life…
It’s a phase when you realize
It’s a phase when you realize
Only you will be held responsible
For the consequences of your actions
Only you will be judged by your demeanour
This phase is the dirtiest
But once you overcome it will be the mightiest
Coz when you look back…
All mistakes made will be laughed off…
Will be seen as small hurdles to reach your destiny
All those who thought unworthy of you will be written off…
Will be seen as critics who helped you be sane mentally
All the right decisions will be applauded
All the achievements will be celebrated
All the hurt and pain
Won’t seem in vain
They will be glorified as your best teachers
All the distraught
Which you fought
It will be revered as your best preacher
Coz many a times there awaits a rainbow after the rain…
And there is no night which ain’t followed by sunshine!!!
